I can’t believe what has happened. I told this guy I liked him. I like his personality, it is truely amazing but there is just oneee problem. he is ugly. I know beauty is defined from the inside but sometimes I just can’t. This was one of those situations. I just lied to him & told him I was gay because, I can’t date him. if dating was all about talking I would be fine, but then comes where physical attraction is important. I would have to kiss him & even thinking about that makes me want to throw up -__- I hate that that’s how it is, but I just can’t like do this. If he was even the least bit more attractive I would consider but I just can’t. I hate myself for this & sadly the Karma is that someone will do that to me someday. I hope not, but I hope that God understands that there is someone to love him better & there is someone out there for me that I can love. I don’t like leading people on so I refuse to break his amazing heart.

- shallow desires ♥.